What can you consider your most memorable moments with your siblings?
What’s your least memorable one?
Do you have any sibling at all?
If none, do you also wish to have one?
What I really wanted to ask is, how to become an eldest in these trying times most especially when both of your parents do not around?
Here’s mine. 🙂
Yesterday’s turned out really fine. I mean days last couple of months seemed a little okay because there were days I and my siblings fight about little things we usually misunderstood from each other. One would want to do this, and others would disagree about it. I mean those are not perfect days for the four of us. But whatever it went, we always settled for one certain thing. These challenging times gave us a better opportunity to be and live with each other, supporting and giving a helping hand, and most of all, keeping each other safe and fine. We are our own happiness and happy pill this trying times and that what’s the most amazing part. Eating fries, toasting loaves of bread and filling it with our favorite peanut butter, sometimes we share a mug of coffee, stealing a piece of food from each other’s plate, and watching nice movie series all together while doing our household chores.
I can say that these are the good ones of the countless memories I and my siblings have been sharing these past three months. A very memorable one, I should say perhaps.
Do we also have bad moments together? Yes of course, in fact, there’s so many to mention. I believe siblings should have small fights and disagreements sometimes to make the bond become stronger. But that doesn’t mean I want any of them. And yes, I hate that unpleasant scenario between us. Who would have wanted to have them anyway? Like for example who would have wanted to suddenly see or know that one of them runs away because something’s not right. And what’s worst? To have this kind blaming-game feeling for yourself causes you feel like you’re behaving too bossy being their eldest.
Have you known a friend who used to nag things even the smallest one just like most folks did to their children? I am like that. I am kind of bossy who would always order things around, always expecting things to be neatly done as planned, and always want to be obeyed. And I felt sorry about it. I’d always wanted to keep us four together, even how challenging it would get for me financially. All I ever wanted is to see us intact and that’s really what always made me happy.
But I realized now, that even how you constantly tried to put your efforts on trying to fix and build things if one or some part of it don’t want to get involved or don’t want to cooperate, maybe its better to leave things that way rather than losing not only your effort and time but your whole self as well. Yes, I already cried. I swear.
But I think the best thing to do right now (being the eldest) is to allow things or this situation touches us individually.
Maybe this will somehow give us space to do things on our own. Maybe, this will help us appreciate the value of the time we’ve been sharing and living all this time, especially the happy and amazing moments. And maybe allowing our individual selves to accept our own uniqueness and differences when faced in an unpleasant situation again.
Now, what I most realized is that just like most siblings, we are also perfectly imperfect. As eldest, I have to accept this fact wholeheartedly (even if it would upset me sometimes) because yeah, after all, they are always my family. And I think no bad feeling or situation could ever change that. 🙂
